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‘Forgive me, Jesus, for not turning to you more throughout the day. You always bail me out. You make everything beautiful. Thank you for what I learned today that it’s alright to be brave and that it is good to be honest.’

 

I sung a song today that repeated the words praise jesus. I was just doing it without thinking. Certainly not participating with my heart or spirit barely with my mind as it was almost repetitive without thinking,

This dull state is like being dead. There is no hope no guidance and no real love.

 

Real love isn’t what someone can do for me. It is what I can do for someone else.

(I own this phrase now so if someone uses it please quote me)

‘What can I do for you Jesus?’

 

 

I wanted this to be the end for today but I must put more in. I’m not sure why. Probably because i am insecure and don’t want to gyp (rip off) anyone.

After the non worship singing I began to sing my own made up song which went something like:
“I went to my Father’s house but I could not get in.
I know it was because of my sin.
But when I knocked Jesus let me in.”

It is hard to show the alignment between  my whole being and God (the tiny portion of my Creator that I have come to know) in words. The best I can do to describe it is after someone saved my life from drowning I felt thankful to them with my whole being. I felt like I owed them my life and wanted to pay them back,

It is the words that hinder me. I certainly am no word smith but I have understanding only because of Jesus. That and he blesses the dumb with His wisdom.

Part of the goodness in making up my own words of the worshipful song I sung was being honest. I wasn’t trying to sing. I sang. To me this is a huge revelation. Everyone else probably knows this stuff already.

 

Finally I must include a bible verse. I know it deters non Christians but it is so vital to my personal journey that I can not exclude it.

Ps 5:7 (NET) ” 7​But as for me, because of your great faithfulness I will enter your house;
​​​​​​I will bow down toward your holy temple as I worship you. ”

I looked up worship in the bible concordance and found this verse. God is really scary sometimes. I am thunderstruck.

 

I like this quote from Henri Nouen

“Did I offer peace today? Did I bring a smile to someone’s face? Did I say words of healing? Did I let go of my anger and resentment? Did I forgive? Did I love? These are the real questions. I must trust that the little bit of love that I sow now will bear many fruits, here in this world and the life to come.”  Henri Nouwen

Taken from https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/h/henrinouwe588351.html?src=t_love

 

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