Forgive me Jesus for forgetting you. Thank you for energy.

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‘Rip through the lies, Jesus.

I know you want me to seek Your kingdom first but I am thinking about other things. I am thinking about food and buying things. Please forgive me. Please curb my appetites and lead me to You.’

There are layers of truth. One layer is that I am human and flawed and needy. The layer under that is that God created me. He knows me. I can not hide. I am good only because He is good. Faith comes from Him. I try to muster up belief. This does not work. When I submit and humble myself before Him, the all powerful mighty creator, then faith comes. Looking at Him. Looking toward Him.

Praise You Jesus for being inaccessible to sinners like me.
Praise You because You are so good.

Praise You for never being unavailable.

This sounds very contradictory but there is resolution. I can not go into His Holy place on my own power. I will die. Death feels lonely and frustrated. When I seek Him for reasons other than love it does not turn out well.

On the other hand, when I let Him reign, He opens the door for me. This is knocking.
It is quiet humbleness.

 

 

I talk when I’m excited and I talk to get things. ‘Husha u mouthie’ is good advice I got from a friend.

 

Gen 25:27 (KJ2000) ” 27 And the boys grew: and Esau was a skilful hunter, a man of the field; and Jacob was a quiet man, dwelling in tents. ”

The word plain is the Hebrew word tam which means complete, gentle, perfect, upright and plain.

 

Ps 107:1-43 (KJ2000) ” 1 O give thanks unto the LORD, for he is good: for his mercy endures forever. 2 Let the redeemed of the LORD say so, whom he has redeemed from the hand of the enemy; 3 And gathered them out of the lands, from the east, and from the west, from the north, and from the south. 4 They wandered in the wilderness in a solitary way; they found no city to dwell in. 5 Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them. 6 Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them out of their distresses. 7 And he led them forth by the right way, that they might go to a city of habitation. 8 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! 9 For he satisfies the longing soul, and fills the hungry soul with goodness. 10 Such as sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, being bound in affliction and in irons; 11 Because they rebelled against the words of God, and the counsel of the most High: 12 Therefore he brought down their heart with labor; they fell down, and there was none to help. 13 Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them out of their distresses. 14 He brought them out of darkness and the shadow of death, and broke their bands asunder. 15 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! 16 For he has broken the gates of bronze, and cut the bars of iron in two. 17 Fools because of their transgression, and because of their iniquities, are afflicted. 18 Their soul abhors all manner of food; and they draw near unto the gates of death. 19 Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he saves them out of their distresses. 20 He sent his word, and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions. 21 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! 22 And let them sacrifice the sacrifices of thanksgiving, and declare his works with rejoicing. 23 They that go down to the sea in ships, that do business on great waters; 24 These see the works of the LORD, and his wonders in the deep. 25 For he commands, and raises the stormy wind, who lifts up the waves thereof. 26 They mount up to the heaven, they go down again to the depths: their soul is melted because of trouble. 27 They reel to and fro, and stagger like a drunken man, and are at their wit’s end. 28 Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he brings them out of their distresses. 29 He makes the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still. 30 Then are they glad because they are quiet; so he brings them unto their desired haven. 31 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! 32 Let them exalt him also in the congregation of the people, and praise him in the assembly of the elders. 33 He turns rivers into a wilderness, and the water springs into dry ground; 34 A fruitful land into barrenness, for the wickedness of them that dwell therein. 35 He turns the wilderness into a pool of water, and dry ground into water springs. 36 And there he makes the hungry to dwell, that they may prepare a city for habitation; 37 And sow the fields, and plant vineyards, which may yield fruits of increase. 38 He blesses them also, so that they are multiplied greatly; and permits not their cattle to decrease. 39 Again, they are diminished and brought low through oppression, affliction, and sorrow. 40 He pours contempt upon princes, and causes them to wander in the wilderness, where there is no way. 41 Yet sets he the poor on high from affliction, and makes their families like a flock. 42 The righteous shall see it, and rejoice: and all iniquity shall stop its mouth. 43 Whoever is wise, and will observe these things, even they shall understand the lovingkindness of the LORD.”

This is exactly how I was feeling this morning. I was frustrated I could not think. I was in turmoil. The storm was raging.
Thank You, Jesus. You are good. Your mercy endures forever.

 

A synopsis of Psalm 107 is contained in these three verses; Ps 107:28-30 (KJ2000) ” 28 Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he brings them out of their distresses. 29 He makes the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still. 30 Then are they glad because they are quiet; so he brings them unto their desired haven.”

 

The distresses I was experiencing are found in verses

Ps 107:4 (KJ2000) ” 4 They wandered in the wilderness in a solitary way; they found no city to dwell in. ”
Ps 107:5 (KJ2000) ” 5 Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them. ”
Ps 107:12 (KJ2000) ” 12 Therefore he brought down their heart with labor; they fell down, and there was none to help. ”
Ps 107:27 (KJ2000) ” 27 They reel to and fro, and stagger like a drunken man, and are at their wit’s end. ”

 

I remember asking a religious leader if it was a sin to covet a new car. He asked if I needed a new car. When I said yes, he said that it was ok to look at cars when I need a new one and that is not a sin.

Jesus I need Your guidance and discernment to know when I am coveting and when I simply need something.

 

I really felt like I was at my ‘wit’s end’

My cross references also call this staggering. It is mentioned in Job and Isiah.
Job 12:25 (KJ2000) ” 25 They grope in the dark without light, and he makes them to stagger like a drunken man. ”
Isa 19:14 (KJ2000) ” 14 The LORD has mixed a perverse spirit in its midst: and they have caused Egypt to err in her every work, as a drunken man staggers in his vomit. ”

 

What turned me around was stopping my obsession with what is wrong with me and turning my attention to the one who made me, Jesus.

 

Ps 107:29 (KJ2000) ” 29 He makes the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still. “

He made the storm in me calm.
He removed all the distresses and had mercy on me.
‘Praise You, Jesus.’

 

It is good that God answers my cry so quickly. Stormy thinking is very evil and He eradicates it quickly if I let Him.

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