I have to share that I love C.S. Lewis.  I just got done reading ‘mere christianity’ for like the 10th time.

I have a quote from it that touched me:

 “God is the only comfort. He is also the supreme terror: the thing we most need and the thing we most want to hide from. He is our only possible ally, and we have made ourselves His enemies. Some people talk as if meeting the gaze of absolute goodness would be fun. They need to think again. They are still only playing with religion. Goodness is either the great safety or the great danger—according to the way you react to it. And we have reacted the wrong way. . . . Of course, I quite agree that the Christian religion is, in the long run, a thing of unspeakable comfort. But it does not begin in comfort; it begins in the dismay I have been describing, and it is no use at all trying to go on to that comfort without first going through that dismay. In religion, as in war and everything else, comfort is the one thing you cannot get by looking for it. If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end: if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth—only soft soap and wishful thinking to begin with and, in the end, despair.”

I’m just beginning to admit that I am scared of God.

Sure He comforts me but what power in a gentle package.  I’m glad He can change me more and more each day.  It is scary though.  Praise Him for faith.  I know His way is the best.  He proves it over and over.