I need to change my ideas about what perfection is.
It is not what I think how everything has to be neat and in order.

Life is messy but that does not mean it is imperfect.

(Gen 17:1) And when Abram was ninety years old and nine, the LORD appeared to Abram, and said unto him, I am the Almighty God; walk before me, and be you perfect.
(Gen 17:2) And I will make my covenant between me and you, and will multiply you exceedingly.
(Deut 18:13) You shall be perfect with the LORD your God.
H8549 (Mickelson’s Enhanced Strong’s Greek and Hebrew Dictionaries)
H8549 תָּמִים tamiym (taw-meem’) adj.
1. (literally, figuratively or morally) entire
2. (also, as noun) integrity, truth
[from H8552]
KJV: without blemish, complete, full, perfect, sincerely (-ity), sound, without spot, undefiled, upright(-ly), whole.
Root(s): H8552

(Matt 5:48) Be you therefore perfect, even as your Father who is in heaven is perfect.
G5046 (Mickelson’s Enhanced Strong’s Greek and Hebrew Dictionaries)
G5046 τέλειος teleios (tel’-ei-os) adj.
1. complete
{(neuter as noun, with G3588) completeness; in various applications of labor, growth, mental and moral character, etc.}
[from G5056]
KJV: of full age, man, perfect
Root(s): G5056
See also: G3588

Even the Hebrew and Greek imply a wholeness or holiness.

How warped is the English version which implies living up to a human plan.

having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be.
“she strove to be the perfect wife”
synonyms: ideal, model, without fault, faultless, flawless, consummate, quintessential, exemplary, best, ultimate, copybook; More
absolute; complete (used for emphasis).
“a perfect stranger”
synonyms: absolute, complete, total, real, out-and-out, thorough, thoroughgoing, downright, utter, sheer, arrant, unmitigated, unqualified, veritable, in every respect, unalloyed
“she felt like a perfect idiot”
(of a number) equal to the sum of its positive divisors, e.g., the number 6, whose divisors (1, 2, 3) also add up to 6. Other perfect numbers are 28, 496, and 8,128.
(of a tense) denoting a completed action or a state or habitual action that began in the past. The perfect tense is formed in English with have or has and the past participle, as in they have eaten and they have been eating (since dawn) ( present perfect ), they had eaten ( past perfect ), and they will have eaten ( future perfect ).
(of a flower) having both stamens and carpels present and functional.

verb: perfect; 3rd person present: perfects; past tense: perfected; past participle: perfected; gerund or present participle: perfecting
make (something) completely free from faults or defects, or as close to such a condition as possible.
“he’s busy perfecting his bowling technique”
synonyms: improve, better, polish (up), hone, refine, put the finishing/final touches to, brush up, fine-tune
“he’s busy perfecting his bowling technique”


Synonyms for perfect
adj flawless, superlative , splendid, foolproof, superb, ideal, pure, excellent, impeccable, sound, experienced, expert, crowning, stainless, classical, accomplished, culminating, excelling, adept, finished, consummate, utopian, aces, sublime, absolute, blameless, faultless, immaculate, matchless, peerlesss, skilled, skillful, spotless, supreme, unblemished, unequaled, untarnished, paradisiac, paradisiacal, unmarred, untainted, ten, A-OK, beyond compare, defectless, indefectible, out-of-this-world.
Antonyms for perfect
imperfect, incomplete, unsophisticated, inexpert, unskilled, unfinished, inaccurate, poor, bad, inferior, second-rate, flawed, wrong, corrupt, unknowledgeable, inept, unbroken, broken, part, imprecise, wrong.
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adj accurate, correct
precise, appropriate, ideal, proper, suitable, exact, right, faithful, fit, required, textbook, needed, express, sharp, close, requisite, model, certain, dead-on, definite, distinct, strict, unerring, very, true, on target, on the button, on the money, to a T, to a turn, bull’s-eye
inaccurate, inexact, unsuitable, incorrect, unacceptable, inappropriate, unsuited, uncertain, indefinite, imperfect, incomplete, unfinished, false, imprecise, careless, improper, unfitting, unfit, slow, flawed, inferior, second-rate, unbroken, broken, part, wrong

verbpolish; achieve
hone, accomplish, develop, refine, cultivate, carry out, realize, improve, finish, complete, perform, crown, elaborate, idealize, smooth, slick, effect, consummate, fulfill, ameliorate, round, put finishing touch on
decrease, damage, ignore, destroy, ruin, fail, stop, neglect, forget, halt, not finish
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Usage Notes
A few usage guides still object to the use of comparison words such as more, most, nearly, almost, and rather with perfect on the grounds that perfect describes an absolute, yes-or-no condition that cannot logically be said to exist in varying degrees. The English language has never agreed to this limitation. Since its earliest use in the 13th century, perfect has, like almost all adjectives, been compared, first in the now obsolete forms perfecter and perfectest, and more recently with more, most, and similar comparison words: the most perfect arrangement of color and line imaginable. Perfect is compared in most of its general senses in all varieties of speech and writing. After all, one of the objectives of the writers of the U.S. Constitution was “to form a more perfect union.” See also complete, unique.
More words related to perfect:
adj. correct, without error
absolute, actual, authentic, authoritative, certain, conclusive, definite, definitive, errorless, exact, factual, faultless, final, flawless, genuine, infallible, irrefutable, official, perfect, right, straight, strict, true, truthful, undeniable, undisputed, unimpeachable, unquestionable, unrefuted, valid, veracious

verb. bring to successful conclusion; reach a goal
accomplish, acquire, actualize, attain, bring about, bring off, bring to pass, cap, carry out, carry through, close, complete, conclude, consummate, deliver, discharge, dispatch, do, earn, earn wings, effect, effectuate, enact, end, execute, finish, follow through, fulfill, gain, get, get done, manage, negotiate, obtain, perfect, perform, procure, produce, rack up, reach, realize, resolve, score, seal, see through, settle, sign, solve, win, wind up, work out.

adj. whole quantity
complete, entire, full, greatest, gross, outright, perfect, total, utter

adj. most excellent
A-1, ace, bad, beyond compare, boss, capital, champion, chief, choicest, cool, culminating, finest, first, first-class, first-rate, foremost, greatest, highest, incomparable, inimitable, leading, matchless, nonpareil, number 1, optimum, out-of-sight, outstanding, paramount, peerless, perfect, preeminent, premium, prime, primo, principal, sans pareil, second to none, super, superlative, supreme, terrific, tops, tough, transcendent, unequaled, unparalleled, unrivaled, unsurpassed, 10.

adj. not responsible
above suspicion, clean, clean-handed, clear, crimeless, exemplary, faultless, good, guilt-free, guiltless, immaculate, impeccable, in the clear, inculpable, innocent, irreprehensible, irreproachable, not guilty, perfect, pure, righteous, stainless, unblemished, unimpeachable, unoffending, unspotted, unsullied, untarnished, upright, virtuous.
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Word Origin & History
perfect early 13c., from O.Fr. parfit (11c.), from L. perfectus “completed,” pp. of perficere “accomplish, finish, complete,” from per- “completely” + facere “to perform” (see factitious). Often used in Eng. as an intensive (perfect stranger, etc.). The verb meaning “to bring to full development” is recorded from late 14c. Perfectionist is 1650s, originally theological, “one who believes moral perfection may be attained in earthly existence;” sense of “one only satisfied with the highest standards” is from 1934.
Example Sentences for perfect
My dear Miss Pecksniffs, your pa is a perfect missionary of peace and love.’
If to be perfect in a certain sphere, What matter, soon or late, or here or there?
He made a beautiful 34 convalescence and a perfect recovery.
Ritual is the perfect form of drill and of the regulated habit which comes from drill.
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The Blameless part of perfection =

adj. above suspicion; flawless
A-okay, accurate, aces, apple-pie, clean, correct, errorless, exact, exquisite, faultless, fleckless, immaculate, incorrup,t infallible, innocent, irreproachable, nice, note-perfect, on target, perfect,
precise, pure, right, sinless, stainless, ten, unblemished, unerring, unflawed, unimpeachable.

The Meaning of Numbers: The Number 10
In the Bible, the number 10 is used 242 times. The designation “10th” is used 79 times. Ten is also viewed as a complete and perfect number, as is 3, 7 and 12. It is made up of 4, the number of the physical creation, and 6, the number of man. As such, it signifies testimony, law, responsibility and the completeness of order.

In Genesis 1 we find the phrase “God said” 10 times, which is a testimony of His creative power. God gave the 10 Commandments to man. Ten therefore represents man’s responsibility to keep the commandments. A tithe is a 10th of our earnings and is a testimony of our faith in the Lord.

The Passover lamb was selected on the 10th day of the 1st month (Exodus 12:3), as was Jesus, the Lamb that takes away the sins of the world (John 12:28 – 29; 1Corinthians 5:7). The 10th day of the 7th month is the Holy Day known as the Day of Atonement. This unique day of fasting pictures the removal of Satan, the author of sin, before the Millennial reign of Jesus begins (Revelation 20:1 – 2). The last great world-ruling kingdom of man under Satan is symbolized prophetically by the 10 toes of Daniel 2 and the 10 horns of Revelation 13 and 17.
complete the cycle of the Divine description of His Word. One or other of these ten words occurs in every verse (except 122), viz., Way, Testimony, Precepts, Commandments, Laying, Law, Judgment, Righteousness, Statutes, Word. These, the Massorah says, “correspond to the Ten Commandments.”
“I am the Bread of Life” (6:35).
“I am the Bread of Life which came down from heaven” (6:41).
“I am the Living Bread” (6:51).
“I am the Light of the world” (8:12).
“I am One that bear witness of Myself” (8:18).
“I am the Door of the sheep” (10:7,9).
“I am the Good Shepherd” (10:14).
“I am the Resurrection and the Life” (14:6).
“I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life” (14:6).
“I am the True Vine” (15:1,5).

Perfect means all. God is all good all powerful and all knowing.
Do I appreciate His goodness? Do I bend to His way that is better ‘higher’ than my way?
It is interesting that some of the synonyms for perfect include righteous, holy innocent.

Augustinian theodicy
St Augustine of Hippo (AD 354–430) in his Augustinian theodicy, as presented in John Hick’s book Evil and the God of Love, focuses on the Genesis story that essentially dictates that God created the world and that it was good; evil is merely a consequence of the fall of man (The story of the Garden of Eden where Adam and Eve disobeyed God and caused inherent sin for man). Augustine stated that natural evil (evil present in the natural world such as natural disasters etc.) is caused by fallen angels, whereas moral evil (evil caused by the will of human beings) is as a result of man having become estranged from God and choosing to deviate from his chosen path. Augustine argued that God could not have created evil in the world, as it was created good, and that all notions of evil are simply a deviation or privation of goodness. Evil cannot be a separate and unique substance. For example, Blindness is not a separate entity, but is merely a lack or privation of sight. Thus the Augustinian theodicist would argue that the problem of evil and suffering is void because God did not create evil; it was man who chose to deviate from the path of perfect goodness.

I understand a couple of things about Augustine (of Hippo). First is how his mother (Monica) prayed for his conversion for 40 years (17), never gave up and finally had her prayers answered. The second is that he resolved the problem of evil by introducing free will as the answer,
For God so loved the world… God loves us so much that He allows us to turn away from Him if we choose. This is perfection. His kind of love is not like mine or any human love. It is completely freeing.   See God loves me.

Listen to this quote form wikipedia “Free will was not intended for sin, meaning it is not equally predisposed to both good and evil. A will defiled by sin is not considered as “free” as it once was because it is bound by material things, which could be lost or be difficult to part with, resulting in unhappiness.”
Sin makes me less able to exercise free will. It makes me less free.
Instead of being able to have alcohol which I think is my right and freedom to do. I am actually being bound and shackled to a habit and detriment to my freedom from alcohol because the next drink I will more readily want.

It is a revelation. Sin binds and is not free. My idea is that I have freedom to sin when actually the more I sin the less able I am to make free choices.
God’s perfection involves much. Much I am unable to comprehend now or ever I suspect.

But for me to allow Him to change my idea of perfection is what I am after.

That the messiness of life can be seen as beautiful.
Even writing this. There was a format problem that i couldn’t let go of. It was not the way I wanted it. It was not perfect to me.
And yet. It might have been that way for a reason. To calm down. To mull over the depth of meanings.
To appreciate God’s real perfection. Not my striving for some unreal ideal that I am incapable of. But accepting that I am humorous to God, In a joyful way. Go ahead and strive to fix the format just the way you like. All the time He sees me different than I see myself. He sees me as perfect.
God is the best.
beyond all people and all created things.

Look at the words for best. How many stores use these words as names? – tops, prime,
ace, supreme, champion, paramount, peerless.
What does this say about my society. Consuming is god.
God is the best. Not best buy.